Friday, June 26, 2009

no explanation needed

Why do some of us feel the need to explain who we are, why we believe as we do and how we choose to spend our lives?

I had the privilege of spending time with a dear friend last week. She wisely echoed the sentiments of my husband who strives to remind us in this family to embrace the NOW. For there is truly NOTHING else. Not ever. Moments to come are always ahead of us while the things of the past can never be recaptured or done over. Many of us can't get our brains around this for some reason.

Planning is sometimes a bad habit; even as I write this, I cringe. I hate last-minute things but I've also learned that my best efforts at planning and preparing do not guarantee smooth sailing.

As we get ready for our family vacation, I'm trying to relax. I'm trying to avoid reaching my maximum stress levels just in time for R&R. I'm trying to understand that some projects will not get done, some laundry may go unwashed, the house will not be immaculate. Even now, as my boys are making a grand mess with Play-doh, I'm realizing that the only person who's going to freak out about mess or stress over imperfection in my kitchen is ME. Why am I so hard on myself? Today, right this moment, I am letting my boys be boys... messy, unorganized, free-spirited little boys. There is enough explaining in life ahead of them. For now, there is no need.