currently me

Had some facebook time the other night and I updated something about myself. Thought it worth sharing here, for what it's worth. (By the way, I was in the middle of a new post today about my sons TEACHING THEMSELVES TO PLAY CHESS when the power went out and zapped said post... suffice it to say, those boys continue to amaze their mommy!) But, back to me:

i like people and solitude. outdoors and indoors. summer and winter. comfort and change. i love to shop until that hour is over, then i hate the very idea of it. old friends and new friends. i want to love the me i am today and not be so preoccupied with the me i want to be or the me others see. i keep the faith. i hate my lazy side. i LOVE the water and i LOVE my kids. i think i was delusional as a young person (both as a kid and as a young adult), but i guess that's ok now. i'm married to the best guy ever. and that's saying a lot because my dad is AWESOME. i'm pretty big on family, even when i feel distant and like they don't understand me (or i them). i think and worry too much. i can admit this, but i'm not ok with it. i don't ask anyone to be friends on facebook or anywhere else because i just don't. love what you do! i absolutely LOVE that i get to be home full time as a wife and mom. and i'm finally owning that and not ashamed of sounding spoiled or lazy, or afraid of people thinking i do nothing all day. if you don't know, you never will. i've learned to expect less of people, but i don't feel jaded or cynical... just wiser. i am way less outspoken than i used to be but i still love passionately, and i am totally ok with the fact that i don't have all the answers.