it isn't just feeling that keeps me to you. for what if i'm cranky or bored or pissed off? what if there's drama i didn't ask for or worry or illness or unexpected company?
no, it's all of the history of me that's in you. more us than just one, more to us than two.
and now there are people, these two that are so precious and beautiful and ours! i crept in tonight, while you were away, to check on their faces. i might have even stayed. but they were resting, so peaceful. and peace they shall have. with all of my heart and my soul and my power, they will have peace despite me, despite you. despite our humanity, our frailty. they shall have peace.
i closed the door, the wind blew outside and i felt safe. here. our home. our life. our yesterday and our tomorrows. not because we always feel like it, but because we are this, this is us. and it's ours; ours alone.
