Sometime between April and August of last year, I lost my way.
Well, kind of.
In all honesty, I knowingly took my turns and chose my paths, despite how selfish and hedonistic they were.
And then sometime in October, after a couple of unfortunate events (yes, of my own making), something in me snapped. Snapped back into place, that is.
I was always the good girl, the rules-follower, the "good head on her shoulders" kind of student and daughter. But once I had this life-change last fall, though I can't quite get into what all that involved, I have felt more than ever before as though I am being my most true self. And looking back over this past summer of yet another round of discontent (for I had one more than 20 years ago in 1990), I know that I am here today because of where I was yesterday.
It hurt, it was uncomfortable, it was sad. I very well could have lost all that is good in my life. But love and mercy and grace have prevailed.
Today, I am different. Not only because I'll turn 40 this calendar year, but because of the mistakes I've made and the hard lessons I learned during those months.
I hope if you have any interest whatsoever in human connection, you will join me here any time you have the chance. Share yourself by way of your input and insight. I welcome you to my little place online, where I can exercise who I am and do what I love to do, which is write.
Life lessons can be the most life changing events. We are in the same boat. So glad my eyes were opened to the path I was going down and got back to who I really am. Love to read your comments and writing. You a beautiful woman with a huge heart and wise words. Stay your path and reach your ultimate goal sweet friend.
ReplyDeleteyour and awsome writer though i think i may need a dictionary at times.i have seen your attitude change a great deal LoAna keep it up and let that mind of yours just go go go Whiteboy
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ReplyDeletePeople always lose their way. I think you try to be too perfect LoAna. To err is human! Love you!
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